Self-determinism is something I really struggle with. I was always extremely poor growing up, even homeless at times during high school. I watched countless f

Self-determinism is something I really struggle with. I was always extremely poor growing up, even homeless at times during high school. I watched countless friends from middle-class families totally squander their futures and now they mostly work dead-end jobs. Meanwhile I was homeless after high school, robbed of my scholarships, and had to suffer greatly for years in order to get on my feet. I feel like I earned the money I have. And that I deserve even more. At the same time, everywhere I go people tell me how smart and adaptable I am and it makes me feel like I cannot base my expectations of others upon myself.