Wow... That's some deep stuff. Deep as in "80 cc thorazine". I'd recommend that users who are curios about this turn on showdead. Aside that, I've had my own d

Wow... That's some deep stuff. Deep as in "80 cc thorazine". I'd recommend that users who are curios about this turn on showdead. Aside that, I've had my own demons. I don't know if it's social anxiety or whatever pop-psychology name you classify it. I can give speeches, perform in symphonies and jazz groups, and such. Yet, I feel like the outsider looking in at any group. Even when I received free tickets to GenCon, I felt like an outsider even there. I also know that people either love me or hate me. There is no in between. I've found that out many years ago, and paid the price of many friends. Hell, even the outcasts shunned me. I do know that somehow, I piss people off (by body language, inflection or something else). The best part is nobody tells me. They all just leave.