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Take a step back. Let the time pass like sand through the hour glass. Don't try to savior it, don't try to appreciate it. Waste it, it's a luxury, you'll never

Take a step back. Let the time pass like sand through the hour glass. Don't try to savior it, don't try to appreciate it. Waste it, it's a luxury, you'll never have this time again. Don't feel anxious. Your anxiety is trying to pry the time out of your hands, trying to spin up your brain, let it burn some calories. Think of things to do, more better, faster. What you are doesn't matter, what you do does. Fight back, take some time for yourself. You can only ever be in the now, you are not what you've done, you are not what they tell you you are, you are not what you think you are. Nothing really matters. But there is you, and there is now. And you can observe. You need to breathe. Let it all go. You're going nowhere. You're secure in this moment. Dunes may shift and the wind will blow around you. Rain will fall on your head. Your value does not diminish. Not less or more. Feel it, you're close. It courses through you, time. Appreciate it for what it is, not for what can be done with it. Just a bit. Let go. You'll end up doing soon. Thinking. Parading some words into a line, beating them into submission for a service they don't care for. But for just one moment, utterly and completely waste time, know it's gone, you had it. It won't come back again. It's at it's most valuable in this passed form.

sudosteph 6y ago
I do see the appeal of this sort of in-the-moment mindfulness - especially for people who are burnt out or don't otherwise get the dedicated rest time they need from the world. But this reads as awfully sad to me. I hope you're doing OK. I had a a pretty long period of time where I consigned myself to rubber-banding between relentless, meaningless, profitable, and phoned-in productivity vs total solipsism under the guise of "self-care". I told myself things like this comment back then. I thought if I could savor and find meaning in the little things, then I could learn to accept the fact that I had sacrificed most of my agency as a human being in the quest for career progress and the appearance of success. It was really, really not healthy in the long-run, and I don't ever want to be stuck in my head like that again. I'm fairly certain that I really am what I do and what I've done - and that's OK. I don't think I could tolerate existence otherwise. I still waste plenty of time (and recommend choosing to do so ), but I'm now more conscientious about whether the time I waste is manifesting into something physically observable at the very least. It's easier to keep the habit alive than it is to build it back once you've lost it.
koheripbal 6y ago
There are a number of conflicting statements in this comment. eg... > What you are doesn't matter, what you do does. ... > Nothing really matters Logic has value.
- casion 6y ago
  If you do nothing, then it is logical ;)

sudosteph 6y ago

I do see the appeal of this sort of in-the-moment mindfulness - especially for people who are burnt out or don't otherwise get the dedicated rest time they need from the world. But this reads as awfully sad to me. I hope you're doing OK. I had a a pretty long period of time where I consigned myself to rubber-banding between relentless, meaningless, profitable, and phoned-in productivity vs total solipsism under the guise of "self-care". I told myself things like this comment back then. I thought if I could savor and find meaning in the little things, then I could learn to accept the fact that I had sacrificed most of my agency as a human being in the quest for career progress and the appearance of success. It was really, really not healthy in the long-run, and I don't ever want to be stuck in my head like that again. I'm fairly certain that I really am what I do and what I've done - and that's OK. I don't think I could tolerate existence otherwise. I still waste plenty of time (and recommend choosing to do so ), but I'm now more conscientious about whether the time I waste is manifesting into something physically observable at the very least. It's easier to keep the habit alive than it is to build it back once you've lost it.

koheripbal 6y ago

There are a number of conflicting statements in this comment. eg... > What you are doesn't matter, what you do does. ... > Nothing really matters Logic has value.

casion 6y ago
If you do nothing, then it is logical ;)