Got diagnosed earlier in lockdown and started meds after many years of struggling through school and having my coping mechanisms barely being enough to keep thi

Got diagnosed earlier in lockdown and started meds after many years of struggling through school and having my coping mechanisms barely being enough to keep things together at work/home. Once lockdown hit all my built-up coping mechanisms broke down and triggered a depression spiral. I think what finally got me to do the thing was realizing how often I was now not able to parse my partner speaking directly to me even when I was 100% listening, no distracting noises, interested in what they had to say, etc. At the worst it was more than once a day for at least a minute or two. I could see their mouth moving and recognize that they were making words but was unable to understand a word of it no matter how hard I tried. Vyvanse has been helpful. It's made it possible to put the work in and build routines to get stuff done. It's not a magic bullet but it brings me much closer to the starting line. I started struggling more with insomnia since starting it but that's a trade I'm willing to make to be able to function at all.