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Worked for me after I had become incredibly depressed while attempting to rescue my daughter from an abuse situation (I succeeded yay!). I went from having tunn

Worked for me after I had become incredibly depressed while attempting to rescue my daughter from an abuse situation (I succeeded yay!). I went from having tunnel vision, hearing music as just noise, severe dissociation etc. to being just fine and normal two hours later. Best bio-hack I’ve ever done. I personally wouldn’t use it as a recreational drug often though as it does have some known side effects from habitual use and regular drug use is always a bad idea, yes folks that includes weed and alcohol.

TaylorAlexander 6y ago
Thank you for your story. I just wanted to offer an alternative view on regular drug use. I vape marijuana every day. After college I became an alcoholic after having stayed totally sober until age 21. Binge drinking college parties left me and my friends binge drinking well after college. It was bad, though I never lost a job. I’d tried marijuana several times and often felt overwhelmed with it. It would take me more than ten years to realize why those incidents happened - group pressure to take huge hits of marijuana left me feeling way too high. A deeply uncomfortable feeling. But marijuana helped me quit alcohol. I do not consider it the healthiest option nor do I recommend to anyone that they consume marijuana. But I would push back that it is always a bad idea. For my health I only vape marijuana and I keep the doses very small. I know it may still lead to health problems and I hope some day I don’t feel the need to do it. But it seems to help. I’ve stopped for weeks at a time and it’s fine. But I seem to prefer having a bit of marijuana every day. And I really don’t think that’s bad for me personally. I’m a successful robotics engineer. I worked for two years at Google X robotics while consuming marijuana daily and they filed two patents for my work during that time. Since then I’ve gone off to co-found a farming robotics organization that is about to announce our open source farming robot that I designed and built pretty much all myself. I think we should take a more open minded approach to drug use. Some people may find that certain drugs work for them. Certainly I am achieving my life goals while vaping marijuana daily. I don’t really think it’s best for me long term, but it seems to be what’s working for me now.
- kortilla 6y ago
  It’s not clear to me from your post what the upside was for daily marijuana use is. It sounds like it kept you from reaching for the bottle, which I’m supporting of; but, what does it provide for someone who is not an alcoholic?
  - TaylorAlexander 6y ago
    Well you'll mostly have to take my word for it. But I think in general it helps with morning body pain, general mood, and some creativity. I'm well aware of other healthy choices I could be making to help with those things, but for whatever reason I find marijuana a convenient supplement. It is not the healthiest option but I don't consider it "bad" either.
  - dm03514 6y ago
    I recently went through a similar experience. It initially helped me to stop drinking. I pretty much swapped out alcohol for marijuana. Alcohol felt really bad for me physical, emotionally, and mentally. And marijuana doesn’t. I found a lot of other benefits: - unwind and integrate my brain. As an engineer my brain is constantly is “solve” mode, always thinking about problems at work or side projects. Marijuana stops that, my thoughts and brain feels much more integrated. - easier to focus and be present with my kids. I wish that I could just sit and enjoy long periods of time with my kids, but my head is always uneasy, checking work, phone, thinking about problems. Marijuana dials that back and lets me be present and focused - emotional introspection. I had some pretty shitty things happen to me in childhood. I’ve never really reflected on them. I’ve started to repeat some of the abusive behaviors that I experienced growing up. Marijuana has helped me to really introspect my emotions and be open to integrating that trauma - helps relieve low level anxiety and depression, it’s uplifting. I eat low dosage edibles most nights and positive mood effects linger through the next day - it’s just fun :$ it feels good and is recreational. Music sounds different, food tastes more intense I never would have guessed It would be so positive for me. I smoked for a couple months In my late teens until it started making me paranoid. I never would have guessed It would provide me so much benefit. I certainly would never ever have guessed I would become a daily user in my later 30s AND it would significantly improve my quality of life
graeme 6y ago
How long were you in that state before the ketamine? That’s fascinating. Wondering if length of time in a state like that affects odds of permanent reversal.

TaylorAlexander 6y ago

Thank you for your story. I just wanted to offer an alternative view on regular drug use. I vape marijuana every day. After college I became an alcoholic after having stayed totally sober until age 21. Binge drinking college parties left me and my friends binge drinking well after college. It was bad, though I never lost a job. I’d tried marijuana several times and often felt overwhelmed with it. It would take me more than ten years to realize why those incidents happened - group pressure to take huge hits of marijuana left me feeling way too high. A deeply uncomfortable feeling. But marijuana helped me quit alcohol. I do not consider it the healthiest option nor do I recommend to anyone that they consume marijuana. But I would push back that it is always a bad idea. For my health I only vape marijuana and I keep the doses very small. I know it may still lead to health problems and I hope some day I don’t feel the need to do it. But it seems to help. I’ve stopped for weeks at a time and it’s fine. But I seem to prefer having a bit of marijuana every day. And I really don’t think that’s bad for me personally. I’m a successful robotics engineer. I worked for two years at Google X robotics while consuming marijuana daily and they filed two patents for my work during that time. Since then I’ve gone off to co-found a farming robotics organization that is about to announce our open source farming robot that I designed and built pretty much all myself. I think we should take a more open minded approach to drug use. Some people may find that certain drugs work for them. Certainly I am achieving my life goals while vaping marijuana daily. I don’t really think it’s best for me long term, but it seems to be what’s working for me now.

kortilla 6y ago
It’s not clear to me from your post what the upside was for daily marijuana use is. It sounds like it kept you from reaching for the bottle, which I’m supporting of; but, what does it provide for someone who is not an alcoholic?
- TaylorAlexander 6y ago
  Well you'll mostly have to take my word for it. But I think in general it helps with morning body pain, general mood, and some creativity. I'm well aware of other healthy choices I could be making to help with those things, but for whatever reason I find marijuana a convenient supplement. It is not the healthiest option but I don't consider it "bad" either.
- dm03514 6y ago
  I recently went through a similar experience. It initially helped me to stop drinking. I pretty much swapped out alcohol for marijuana. Alcohol felt really bad for me physical, emotionally, and mentally. And marijuana doesn’t. I found a lot of other benefits: - unwind and integrate my brain. As an engineer my brain is constantly is “solve” mode, always thinking about problems at work or side projects. Marijuana stops that, my thoughts and brain feels much more integrated. - easier to focus and be present with my kids. I wish that I could just sit and enjoy long periods of time with my kids, but my head is always uneasy, checking work, phone, thinking about problems. Marijuana dials that back and lets me be present and focused - emotional introspection. I had some pretty shitty things happen to me in childhood. I’ve never really reflected on them. I’ve started to repeat some of the abusive behaviors that I experienced growing up. Marijuana has helped me to really introspect my emotions and be open to integrating that trauma - helps relieve low level anxiety and depression, it’s uplifting. I eat low dosage edibles most nights and positive mood effects linger through the next day - it’s just fun :$ it feels good and is recreational. Music sounds different, food tastes more intense I never would have guessed It would be so positive for me. I smoked for a couple months In my late teens until it started making me paranoid. I never would have guessed It would provide me so much benefit. I certainly would never ever have guessed I would become a daily user in my later 30s AND it would significantly improve my quality of life

graeme 6y ago

How long were you in that state before the ketamine? That’s fascinating. Wondering if length of time in a state like that affects odds of permanent reversal.