And I tried and tried, but to no avail. I can understand what formulas describe, if I take time to remember definitions. But my mind refuses to grasp the realit

And I tried and tried, but to no avail. I can understand what formulas describe, if I take time to remember definitions. But my mind refuses to grasp the reality behind those formulas, if that reality doesn't map well to everyday things like 3D space, objects, movement and so on. It could be possible that I haven't tried long enough, but at about 35 I decided to put less effort into it and to prioritize other things. I'm not encouraging anyone to avoid trying, of course. It was a very useful experience. Knowing that seemingly different things may have unifying mathematical structure (like monad in programming) can expand your approaches even if you aren't good at recognizing and exploring those mathematical structures.