This burns me out. Might be different for you. I try to pursue things to the level of just being good at it. I relate to you, but I know that pushing myself to

This burns me out. Might be different for you. I try to pursue things to the level of just being good at it. I relate to you, but I know that pushing myself to the extreme is not joyous. Tried, succeeded in excellence, and then mentally crashed.