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> People who decide to commit suicide sometimes appear to others to be feeling a lot better in the time between the decision and the final act. To misquote a l
by UI_at_80x24 6y ago
> People who decide to commit suicide sometimes appear to others to be feeling a lot better in the time between the decision and the final act.
To misquote a line from a favorite TV show;
"Fear accompanies the possibility of death. Calm shepherds its certainty." -Ka D'Argo, Farscape
I have attempted suicide, and that line fits for me. As another reader has pointed out there is also peace that comes from making a choice and knowing that your pain will be ending soon.
- helmholtz 6y agoChrist, I can't imagine what it feels like to be in a place where the only choice one sees is out. Hope you're feeling better.
- UI_at_80x24 6y agoThank-you. I am. I'm not. Major Depressive Disorder is a bitch with a long memory.
- agloeregrets 6y agoHaving been on that edge and (luckily) not having the guts, I found that the moment when you can't give yourself the certainty to just do it is somehow even darker than contemplating it. I hope you have that certainty in hope for a better future with you in it and that things are better for you now.
- UI_at_80x24 6y ago>not having the guts This is the point that nobody understands. It's HARD to do! The easy thing to do is let the momentum of living bring you to the next day. It's very difficult to over-ride instinct and cause life-threatening injury to oneself. So I laugh when I hear "it takes more courage to live", or "they took the cowards way out". Thank-you for your gentle words. To once again misquote (from a movie): "I'm not dead yet."