I've been poor all my life, the thought of having money laying around scares me, I should invest, but giving it away like that scares me even more. I'm moving

I've been poor all my life, the thought of having money laying around scares me, I should invest, but giving it away like that scares me even more. I'm moving next week and part of my reserves will be gone, and weirdly enough I'm relieved that someone else will take care of it. I don't feel fit to handle it.