I wish I could post this anonymously but I talk to myself during periods of intense problem solving and meditation. I maybe the only one that can answer technic

I wish I could post this anonymously but I talk to myself during periods of intense problem solving and meditation. I maybe the only one that can answer technical problems I'm having sometimes with my own faults being the cause. Without a thorough review, tracing back probing to their source I'd be unable to continue with complex and obscure problems. In short only I have the answers to my problems as many problems are self caused. I use self speech as a way of forcing my brain to put vague notions into words so they can become more like reason and easier to pursue or reject. I grew up alone, I had no one to talk to about things which are interesting to me. I also sometimes have pressured speech, a psychological problem of an unknown origin. But treatment keeps it in check. I have just learned to censor myself when around others.