I'm an atheist and fear the void, but not a lot. However I believe strongly that everything has a cause and be it randomness or pseudorandom once it started it

I'm an atheist and fear the void, but not a lot. However I believe strongly that everything has a cause and be it randomness or pseudorandom once it started it made sense how it kept going. If I made a wrong decision it was still the only thing that could have happened. ANd probably it was even the best choice at the time. I don't know how to change as a person, but for me it's like this: I'm OK with being average in some ways and I don't have to be remembered either. I enjoy life while it lasts, I don't have big plans, I don't collect many keepsakes. I simply optimize for being a decent being and enjoying life (life of course washes you elsewhere sometimes). If I die tomorrow it will be a bit short, but I had a good run I guess. I try not to waste thoughts on things I can't influence. In the end nobody wants to die, it's a always a tragedy and even fear might get to me, but as long as I have no reason to believe my end is near I'll be fine. About the aging body: I'm fine as long as I don't have too much pain and I'm still sharp in the mind. For pain: I guess morphine will do in the worst case, so that's a solved issue. For a deteriorating mind: I hope there will be a cure against alzheimers, but if it's coming I might plan an exit strategy and try to execute it while I still can. The only thing that does bother me a lot: pissing a way my life with a full time job. But even that: has to be right now, can change, I'm working towards that.