I don’t really know what to say except this is what I already know and it’s not helping. I know I’m not in a good place Brian chemistry-wise. But even when I fe

I don’t really know what to say except this is what I already know and it’s not helping. I know I’m not in a good place Brian chemistry-wise. But even when I feel happy and put together and logical, I don’t want to die on general principle. I know it’s an animal instinct but it’s also an idea and “just accept it” doesn’t seem to work no matter how I spin it.