I knew when I was around ~7 and that never went away. I don't really think of it like a "want" of a puppy because I had wants like a puppy too and those go away

I knew when I was around ~7 and that never went away. I don't really think of it like a "want" of a puppy because I had wants like a puppy too and those go away after a few weeks or months in childhood. It's not something like years and years of never going away. Btw, most people don't consider that being denied something like I was and that has life long consequences as way more hurtful while knowing you were right; and others prevented you. Thinking about things in my life I've been wrong about, such events are way less painful because it felt like my fault when people weren't involved by stoping me from what was right. The painful events are when people involved prevent what was right for you. Basically, it's way more awful when you undergo the wrong circumstances because of someone else that prevented what you knew was right instead of undergoing what was wrong by your own mistake. I tried my best to make that not confusing before I go to sleep.