i go to 5 one hour sessions each week. the therapy and medication cost me over 2 thousand dollars each month, but i credit them with totally turning my life ar

i go to 5 one hour sessions each week. the therapy and medication cost me over 2 thousand dollars each month, but i credit them with totally turning my life around. before this therapy i had zero emotionally intelligence; i would feel things so intensely that i would be overwhelmed with the emotion and unable to think about it rationally. now i am building the ability to step back and see what is happening. another really helpful move i took was to build the website https://www.thoughtplot.org https://www.thoughtplot.org, which has been incredibly valuable for me in understanding my mood. at cbt, i told the guy that i sometimes become convinced that i am supposed to trigger the singularity via a giant public sex orgy. instead of trying to figure out why that is or what i could do about it, he was like "why dont you make it a goal to eat vegetables today?" it actually helped, but it was adressing the symptoms (psychosis) rather than the problem (a feeling of lonliness and self hatred.)