From what you wrote I get the sense that you may be underestimating the time, effort and money often required to make software of a certain size so that when th

From what you wrote I get the sense that you may be underestimating the time, effort and money often required to make software of a certain size so that when those facts start becoming apparent they are a blocker to you continuing. I have been there. Where every project involved grand architecture or lofty feature ideas, both of which are easy to imagine but harder to put into action. Which in my case caused and utter lack of velocity, and the closure that comes with finshing something, for my side projects. My way of getting out of this never ending cycle was to narrow the scope as much as I could, painfully so. All the way down to either weekend projects or even something that only takes a few hours. Just as a simple starting off point I would recommend looking into "Project Euler", just to get the cycle of starting, finishing, dopamine hit going.