As many mentioned, getting into philosophy tends to be best done as an active activity with others due to the value of discussion. Your specific question, as a

As many mentioned, getting into philosophy tends to be best done as an active activity with others due to the value of discussion. Your specific question, as also mentioned by others, seems to be more about psychology than philosophy. I think in order to really advise further, you need to answer for everyone in this thread what you mean by "philosophy" here :)