This seems akin to a red vs. blue pill thing for you. I am the same age and I recommend that you come to your own conclusions, based off of falsifiable evidenc

This seems akin to a red vs. blue pill thing for you. I am the same age and I recommend that you come to your own conclusions, based off of falsifiable evidence and your own beliefs. Perhaps instead of the blue pill, directly address your own fears. Everything dies, it is a natural process. None of us, nor will the Earth and Sun itself, escape fate. Learn to appreciate and maximize the time you have. Or take the blue pill and die all the same, you won't exist consciously in any way, shape or form anyways, so no harm there. So perhaps its a useful, comforting delusion if you find that you can't accept the reality presented by the evidence.