Death and life are fluid points, not black-and-white absolutes as some like to see them. Then only thing that could distinguish me from a rock is self-awarenes

Death and life are fluid points, not black-and-white absolutes as some like to see them. Then only thing that could distinguish me from a rock is self-awareness. One can argue that self-awareness is enjoyable but he is merely repeating words of gurus who achieved self-awareness. Without the slightest realization of what they are actually saying. In reality, self-awareness requires introspective meditation and there is nothing harder than to sit still for long periods of time without external stimuli. Just like it's easier to code in VB than to subject yourself to abstract concepts of LISP. Most people who consider themselves "alive" are more like imperative biocomputers, programmed for a specific task by educational system. One part of their programming is repeating to everyone "I'm alive". I'm sorry, but most people are coded in Visual Basic whereas only some in LISP.