thanks for the reply - its nice to hear some perspective. yes I have a much better appreciation for full time childcare and the associated stresses now. i absol

thanks for the reply - its nice to hear some perspective. yes I have a much better appreciation for full time childcare and the associated stresses now. i absolutely want to be the best parent i can; for now i guess that manifests itself in direct time and attention. its just hard to come to terms with not being able to enjoy intellectual pursuits, projects, etc., not being able to feel like I'm contributing much to our situation and just not knowing when things will change. my wife has been great dealing with her side of things at the same time (and I probably don't say that enough tbh).