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I was just talking to a friend about how deep my depression has gotten. It's at the point now where I'm too scared to go to sleep at night because I know it mea
by neom 6y ago
I was just talking to a friend about how deep my depression has gotten. It's at the point now where I'm too scared to go to sleep at night because I know it means I have to wake up and do another day.
- Angostura 6y agoCongratulations on talking to a friend about it. That's a huge step and an uncomfortable one. Have you managed to speak to a medical professional? With depression that deep, it's definitely worth a try - there are things that can give you respite. The best of luck, really and look after yourself.
- okareaman 6y agoI was suicidally depressed in 2017. A combination of medication, CBT, talk therapy and the love and care of other helping professionals got me better. I've never felt better. It gets better. My email is in my user info.
- brink 6y agoI wasn't suicidal in 2017, but every day felt like a literal nightmare, I hated living, every day was pain, and I didn't care if I lived or died. Today I'm happy and healthy. You can get out. Email is also in profile.
- okareaman 6y agoIt's a weird place to be. Nothing matters. I got past the pain into a peaceful place. The state of California kept sending me a tax bill for $4,000 that I threw away. Eventually they seized my bank account and with penalties took out $12,000. My reaction was that it was interesting that they did that. It felt like I was watching someone else's life, maybe someone on TV.
- seamyb88 6y agoAnd when you've been severely depressed and get better, I argue you feel better than anybody who has never suffered with it.
- okareaman 6y agoThat's true for me. Everyday feels like a blessing.
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- snazz 6y agoFYI: Your email isn’t visible to other users (except moderators) right now—it has to be in the About field to be visible to everyone else.
- okareaman 6y agoThanks. Fixed it.
- seamyb88 6y agoTomorrow's another day of trying to get better. It's not who you are, it's an illness that can perpetuate and dissipate. Every day is a project to get closer to the latter. Talking helps a shit load, but friends and family can't help you as much as you can, and the talking is you helping yourself.