It sounds like we're more philosophically aligned than might be clear. I agree about all of that - I have spent substantial time figuring out grooming/dressing

It sounds like we're more philosophically aligned than might be clear. I agree about all of that - I have spent substantial time figuring out grooming/dressing/posture, and it helps. But in my thinking, I take the nature of initial conditions out to the extreme. The fact that I was able to identify deficiencies, make a plan, and execute that plan - that's just kind of lucky. If I was too emotionally dysregulated to follow through on plans, I'd be hosed. Or if I wasn't intellectually capable of identifying problems and forming viable plans, I'd be hosed. And even on a day to day basis: I feel like my ability to program is a product of decisions my past self made. My current self isn't responsible for my capabilities, he's just the beneficiary/victim of past choices I've made. Maybe this is all a little woo, I don't know. But I feel like the only reality is the one directly before me, and the only meaningful choices are the ones I make in this moment.