umunhum: > Another aspect that I think contributed to my awakening is that I haven't blown my load in over two months. In all seriousness, I think there is a c

umunhum: > Another aspect that I think contributed to my awakening is that I haven't blown my load in over two months. In all seriousness, I think there is a connection. I have read that sperm has the same make up of bindu, so it drains your life energy when it is expended or something like that. I have a thought (misplaced???) that the newly created sperm are going to need some energy to fulfill their mission so they help themselves to the prana that is suppose to be rising up and opening up your chakras. Or maybe the sperm is created out of the prana itself depleting it for hours or days what should be going up your sushumna. Yogananda says that sexuality is the greatest impediment to a males spiritual progress. > The tantric technique of separating orgasm from ejaculation is just Vajroli mudra and Uddiyana bandha. I've learned that the Uddiyana part is more important than the Vajroli. When you pass the point of no return, you employ Vajroli mudra and exhale slowly into Uddiyana and then exhale again and then exhale again (for a total of 3 times) and finally stretch like a cat taking the energy up the spine. I still have small mistakes but I'm not ready to give up that part of my life yet. Until you master the technique it is good to press into the perineum with your thumb and fingers as a backup. I don't think I've had a full ejaculation in 4 months. I feel an incredible amount of current in missionary position with lips or tongues engaged and also hip to hip contact feels likes sparks going off. Many times during the act I get dizzy with bliss and have had to stop and rest for awhile. I also enjoy sex so much more because you stop focusing on the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and instead just focus on being with another divine spirit. I don't know for sure but I think sex has actually aided in my awakening. > This came from understanding when I was meditating . People throw the word samadhi around . I have read the Dhammapada and so know that the Buddha talked about 8 levels of samadhi. I don't know what each one entails. I remember reading the Buddha say that when you slow the mind down enough you can actually see and feel your thoughts coming at you like waves. > Sri Yukteswar (Yogananda's guru) said you gain far more knowledge and understanding from meditation than you will ever learn from a book. I remember one night reading Sri Ramakrishna saying that you don't have the capability nor the capacity to understand what you are with your mind or your limited senses. And so you must transcend the mind to have this understanding.