That's what I'm worried about. I've had three other attempts over the last 20 years, the first when I was 17/18. None of them really took off. I've been sort

That's what I'm worried about. I've had three other attempts over the last 20 years, the first when I was 17/18. None of them really took off. I've been sort of hoping this idea would go away (a sort of 'oh no, not again' feeling), but it won't! Maybe this is the big one?