Yeah I'm in the same situation and I just started lying to everyone and obtaining treatment illegally, buying prescriptions online and treating myself based on

Yeah I'm in the same situation and I just started lying to everyone and obtaining treatment illegally, buying prescriptions online and treating myself based on what I've read instead of waiting 6 months for a 15 minute appointment with a neurologist who not even going to look at my medical history. While I'm no closer to being out of pain, I'm getting treatment at a pace and quality I find appropriate and not getting bogged down being prescribed several subtle variations of the same type of medication. I literally had years of being prescribed different types of SSRIs for "mood" when my real problem is dystonia. My doctor, a specialist, finally revealed she's not "allowed" by the insurance company to prescribe the anti-Parkinson drugs that I can easily buy with bitcoin. I don't I know you don't want advice, but my advice is fuck it you may not be a doctor but you only live once.