> I believe I read the account of a violinist from the New York Philharmonic in which the actual jist was, for them and everybody else they knew in the ensemble

> I believe I read the account of a violinist from the New York Philharmonic in which the actual jist was, for them and everybody else they knew in the ensemble prescribed it, "literally makes you give zero fucks about anybody out there and lets you zone in on exactly what you need to focus on" Last Winter I played in a small ensemble after not performing in a band for maybe twenty years (mostly because of stage fright). Here I was: lead trumpet (carrying the entire melody), totally exposed, audience of maybe 60 people. Zero nervousness as I stood on stage looking out at everyone, as we get ready to begin. But about two minutes in, my hands began to shake, my lungs couldn't take in oxygen, I couldn't hold the notes. Nowhere to hide -- I was the solo lead part for the entire performance! If I even stopped playing for one measure to re-collect myself, it sounded ridiculous because I'm the melody and the pieces had no breaks. The embarrassment was severe. The other players didn't look my way as we packed up afterwards, and I barely said a word as I raced for the exit. So the idea of being able to get that under control (a lifelong struggle) -- yeah, potentially life-changing.