This is an escape, a cope: the issue is that you are working on things that you hate. If you'd started to programm something that you like + would make you mon

This is an escape, a cope: the issue is that you are working on things that you hate. If you'd started to programm something that you like + would make you money you'd be back programming in no time rather than pivoting to otherstuff. Eg most people go into game-dev because they want to make a game but then get stuck programming some shit backend interfacing system for ads and they have zero creative decisions. Obviously they will start to hate their job. But you cannot just stop programming if this is the case: you'd most likely still want to make your own game.