It seems to be difficult to advise you on this without knowing more about the specific nature of your mental illness — although it's entirely understandable tha

It seems to be difficult to advise you on this without knowing more about the specific nature of your mental illness — although it's entirely understandable that you're not too keen to share details. But ultimately, everybody is dealing with some mental health issues (Sigmund Freud said something along the lines of perfect mental health being an unattainable goal for any civilized person), so being aware of your specific issues might put you ahead of the game, if you use this as motivation to monitor your symptoms and counteract your detrimental behaviors, instead of normalizing them.