Meta: It might be worth investigating whether you have ADHD. Several things in your message point at it, and treatment can help. (Apparently needing deadlines

Meta: It might be worth investigating whether you have ADHD. Several things in your message point at it, and treatment can help. (Apparently needing deadlines to get things done, finding it tricky to self-set deadlines, getting agitated when forced to work on things you don't care about, worrying about relative insignificance of day-to-day actions)