Sounds like you are channeling something I've been going through. I Had a rough time after College and took the easy way out through the military, and now empl

Sounds like you are channeling something I've been going through. I Had a rough time after College and took the easy way out through the military, and now employers see a 4 year gap and don't even pick up the phone. Luckily one did, but the work environment isn't very fulfilling, and after the daily commute I am not left with much time to relax and do some out of work projects. Luckily after some time of jumping at the chance to implement stuff here and there and improving my process, I notice people are at least calling me after they read my resume. My interviewing skills have gone up dramatically, and I think my passion and enthusiasm comes through to the people willing to give me a chance to show them. Hopefully sometime soon someone will give me another chance. Keep interviewing if only to honing your skills, to see what people are asking for outside of job descriptions, and to get comfortable talking about yourself. Now someone tell me how to get involved with the local tech scene, when the nearest meetings are hours away and you don't know anyone locally.