It's not easy. I would like very much to be normal, feel normal and enjoy normal things. I still have hope that someday I will. I still find myself envying peop

It's not easy. I would like very much to be normal, feel normal and enjoy normal things. I still have hope that someday I will. I still find myself envying people who do not have to deal with the stuff I deal with. I would not wish the pain and suffering of my daily life on anyone. Even those who are truly evil. As for dealing with it, meditation, medication, and moderation. Also having family and friends who are supportive of you is helpful as well. I am no longer afraid of taking days off to relax and hopefully feel better the next day.