I remember similar feelings working at a large company. The in-fighting and politics were disturbing, it was any wonder how there was profit. So many people t

I remember similar feelings working at a large company. The in-fighting and politics were disturbing, it was any wonder how there was profit. So many people that seemingly contributed negatively yet were still around somehow. Older, wiser co-workers made comments along the lines of "they're going to pay me to attend 20hrs of meetings, it could be worse." When you care a lot about your work, it affects you more when there are uncontrollable forces preventing/stalling your work. Talk to your manager about this and get a sense of how you are performing and that maybe you want to just focus more on the programming work and less on meetings, etc. (the toxic parts). Explore leaving, there are a lot of companies opening up to remote workers with this pandemic.