You're so blessed to have a supportive environment - it actually sounds perfect for where you are right now, doing what you're doing - working on projects to de

You're so blessed to have a supportive environment - it actually sounds perfect for where you are right now, doing what you're doing - working on projects to develop skills, networking, cultivating a rich soil. You're already walking in the right direction, patient and persistent. There must be a better way than choosing to go homeless, to light a fire in your search for motivation and meaning. I understand that feeling though. I think the essence is that you want to get out of your comfort zone, open yourself up to risks and opportunities, to make tangible progress and feel more alive. That "trance" is your daily habits and thought processes - I'm sure there are many ways you can consciously disrupt and break out of the "rut", to encourage yourself to seek new experiences.