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Shamefully I have to admit that I originally created my blog because I thought it would help my career. But posts like this one here show me that it was cargo

by Tade0 6y ago

Shamefully I have to admit that I originally created my blog because I thought it would help my career. But posts like this one here show me that it was cargo culting from the get go. I have much to say, but to date dismissed most of it, because (oh the irony) I thought I shouldn't make this personal space of mine too personal.

rubenerd 6y ago
That struggle is real, especially when grappling with imposter syndrome or a shy personality too. Half the reason I love reading personal blogs is seeing the author's personality. An old boss of mine said you can't truly fake enthusiasm. That's stuck with me since.
- Tade0 6y ago
  I just went over my most recent post and the overwhelming feeling is... embarrassment? Stage fright? Cringe? Do you ever get back to any of your old posts and think "wow, this is just bad"? I mean, I envy you for being able to just own all this, complete with the blog mascot, which to me is the ultimate power move here. How does one obtain this power?
  - rubenerd 6y ago
    Definitely! My old posts are cringe to an extreme. I think turning 30 helped with some perspective; I don't care [as much] anymore. "Yeah my partner is a manga artist and drew me a mascot, so what?" In my early 20s that wouldn't have even computed. But I think the best thing I've found is to own it. Quote your past self, make lighthearted fun of it, and show how you've grown and what you've learned. Between that and not taking things too seriously, it also disarms a lot of trolls. It's also helped in unexpected ways. People at AsiaBSDCon remembered me as the guy who blogs about BSD. I got Allan and Benedict laughing on a BSD Now podcast at a bad joke I wrote in an otherwise-technical post. That felt really good! I empathise that it's trivial to discuss, but hard to internalise. CBT would say if you do it enough times, you feel better about it. That's probably the real answer.
detaro 6y ago
It's also totally valid to separate different aspects if that's what you are more comfortable with (e.g. have two distinct feeds). That's the nice thing about your own blog, you get to make those decisions as you prefer.
k__ 6y ago
"I originally created my blog because I thought it would help my career." I did too and it worked very well.

by Tade0 6y ago

rubenerd 6y ago

That struggle is real, especially when grappling with imposter syndrome or a shy personality too. Half the reason I love reading personal blogs is seeing the author's personality. An old boss of mine said you can't truly fake enthusiasm. That's stuck with me since.

Tade0 6y ago
I just went over my most recent post and the overwhelming feeling is... embarrassment? Stage fright? Cringe? Do you ever get back to any of your old posts and think "wow, this is just bad"? I mean, I envy you for being able to just own all this, complete with the blog mascot, which to me is the ultimate power move here. How does one obtain this power?
- rubenerd 6y ago
  Definitely! My old posts are cringe to an extreme. I think turning 30 helped with some perspective; I don't care [as much] anymore. "Yeah my partner is a manga artist and drew me a mascot, so what?" In my early 20s that wouldn't have even computed. But I think the best thing I've found is to own it. Quote your past self, make lighthearted fun of it, and show how you've grown and what you've learned. Between that and not taking things too seriously, it also disarms a lot of trolls. It's also helped in unexpected ways. People at AsiaBSDCon remembered me as the guy who blogs about BSD. I got Allan and Benedict laughing on a BSD Now podcast at a bad joke I wrote in an otherwise-technical post. That felt really good! I empathise that it's trivial to discuss, but hard to internalise. CBT would say if you do it enough times, you feel better about it. That's probably the real answer.

detaro 6y ago

It's also totally valid to separate different aspects if that's what you are more comfortable with (e.g. have two distinct feeds). That's the nice thing about your own blog, you get to make those decisions as you prefer.

k__ 6y ago

"I originally created my blog because I thought it would help my career." I did too and it worked very well.