Those are all violent, we didn't choose to be conscious, for reality to be as it is, to be born. Suicide is the only revolt against that state of affairs. If

Those are all violent, we didn't choose to be conscious, for reality to be as it is, to be born. Suicide is the only revolt against that state of affairs. If we ask "What is the meaning of life", it is sensible to find it in the affairs that keep us from ending life or to see examples of lives where the person didn't see a meaning to life and thus ended their own. The second part is the root of my difficulty with DFW. If someone says things that matter to me, but then commits suicide, is that them declaring they don't think those things mattered? What that really means, the act of suicide, encapsulates all the violence of being brought into this world without choice and the search for peace within those confines. It is an answer, in a world full of questions, I suppose. To give a construction I just was mulling over based on your response, I think the meaning of life is like a prison cell, whereas consciousness and reality are just features of the cell. Yes, we can ask "Why is a bed here" and it might give us comfort to know that it is so I don't need to sleep on the cold floor. But at the end of the day, the question of most importance is "Why am I locked in this cell?". We can only understand the cell completely by understanding what desires drive men to break out.