Hi, I am 38 and started simple 5min meditation sessions through controlled breathing around 6 months ago just to "see what comes out of it". I can't say it so

Hi, I am 38 and started simple 5min meditation sessions through controlled breathing around 6 months ago just to "see what comes out of it". I can't say it solved anything and I didn't start this in the middle of some personal crisis, in my opinion. Still, I kept doing it and after a few sessions, I started reaching a state of mind that I enjoyed enough to keep repeating the exercise. Now I enjoy longer sessions (~10 minutes), either in the morning, or sometimes in the middle of the day while hidden somewhere secret at my office. I wouldn't tell you to do it because "it will be awesome". Still, I thought it as a life experiences worth giving it a try, and I might actually enjoy it while not losing much. I started simply: I put any device around me into silent mode, I set up a timer for 5 minutes on my wristwatch, then sit on the floor comfortably. I close my eyes and begin breathing just a little bit slower and deeper than I'd usually do. Here comes the challenge: I try to focus my attention on my respiration and to keep anything else out. You would be amazed at how many times your brain literally, and relentlessly, tries to focus your attention on anything else but your respiration. At the beginning, 5 minutes felt so long that I would even open my eyes to check whether I had actually started the timer...