[these are my opinions and not those of any of my current or past employers]. I feel for ya. And I think while passion for software is really great to have, g

[these are my opinions and not those of any of my current or past employers]. I feel for ya. And I think while passion for software is really great to have, given how our interviews are structured it won't necessarily help you clear them. Our interviews are now all about process. There is such a huge supply of entry level talent (crazy compensation and low barrier to entry) that companies are looking for a standardized way of measuring candidates. This means preparing for interviews will have nothing to do with your role (unless you are widely regarded as a specialist/expert in your field). The good news is since this is standardized it can be hacked by a little trick called preparation. I can assure almost every question in a tech interview can either be found leetcode or in the system design primer. All you need is a month of preparation (or make monthly interviews a hobby like going to the gym so you stay sharp). It is all about mastery and mastery needs consistent practise. Instead of thinking you cannot do it, I'd encourage you think in a different way. What is keeping you in this field (money? Friends? Domain?) Is it enticing enough for you to put in the effort to stay with the pack for the rewards?