What you're pointing at can be identified on a psychological level as the big five personality dimension called "conscientiousness". While it sounds good to ha

What you're pointing at can be identified on a psychological level as the big five personality dimension called "conscientiousness". While it sounds good to have a definition to run with this only makes the problem worse as it points to something in your personality, your very identity that you say you want to change. Sorry to suggest that it's a bigger problem, but I think solving it can help you out in more parts of your life. Here's some reading: https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/raising-your-conscientiousness https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/raising-your-... https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/finding-new-home/201902/three-potential-ways-become-more-conscientious https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/finding-new-home/201... https://www.mgmt.ucl.ac.uk/news/becoming-more-conscientious https://www.mgmt.ucl.ac.uk/news/becoming-more-conscientious