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Man, I have a lot of parallels to this. Been on a scrip for that stuff for as long as I can remember, and I had a similar experience at school. Hearing your s

Man, I have a lot of parallels to this. Been on a scrip for that stuff for as long as I can remember, and I had a similar experience at school. Hearing your story really gives me hope for myself; so, thanks! If you don't mind me asking, what kind of work are you doing now? Any tips for your past self?

wincy 6y ago
I work as a software engineer mostly backend/middle tier APIs and stuff for a Fortune 500 company now. I’d remind myself that things like alcohol that act strongly on dopamine can cause SERIOUS problems with adderall, like not feeling any happiness for a week and fun things like that. Adderall is a serious tool to be taken seriously. I joke that Adderall is like a chainsaw. If you’re using it at 3am, there’s a problem. I’d also tell myself that the Adderall isn’t what made me lose weight, and wasn’t the main thrust of me being able to learn. Losing 75 pounds and moving from obese to a healthy weight HUGELY boosted my brain power and concentration power. I was also constantly reacting to food. Had to sort that out. Adderall let me sort of ignore it for a long time but the underlying condition just got worse. Was put on Nexium for horrible GERD at night at 34, was trembling and all sorts of scary side effects. A ketogenic diet with moderate exercise of walking once or twice a day makes a huge difference. Also magnesium is a like a miracle for my anxiety. I’d tell me from before I was even in tech at all to just stop wasting my time failing at school and just get a tech job. Although I don’t know if I could have done it without my wife, honestly. I was really good at lying to myself and she put a stop to that shit, excuse my language. I should have tried. I’d also maybe be less arrogant after getting a good job. I lost a lot of friends who were in a similar slacker boat as me a few years ago. It’s like they stopped wanting to hang out once I became successful which was very isolating.
- pksebben 6y ago
  Magnesium; I assume you mean magnesium amino chelate - I use that too. I was kind of pissed that I had to find out about it on the internet and my doctor looked at me funny when I mentioned it. A huge gamechanger for me was asking a friend who's also on the 'phetamines what time of day they stop taking it - now I'm religious about never ingesting stimulants after 3pm and holy crap what a difference. I was a bartender for over a decade; there's no better crash course on how awful a molecule alcohol is. It's the worst drug. Sorry to hear about your friends. It sucks to lose your roots, I went through something similar myself. I've come to reckon with the fact that people sometimes grow apart, and you can't always hold yourself responsible for what might just be an incompatibility in process.
  - wincy 6y ago
    Wow you and I do sound like we've had a lot of the same experiences, glad to here you're figuring out all this too. 3pm is exactly my rule too, never ever past then. Most days not past noon because my wife will ask me "have you been taking Adderall?" because my personality is so different. I go from being fun and easygoing to absolute Type-A, everything including people is either an obstacle or a tool toward a goal. I had people who saw me thriving with Adderall and started taking it – it sort of destroyed them. I'm much more cautious about recommending it. I'm having a productive day today and haven't taken any – sticking to a low carb diet for me at least seems to be the absolute most important thing for my mental health. I was so unstable and angry before. Having a spouse around to correct my course when I start getting a little too enthusiastic about amphetamines and work was important for me too. I use Magnesium Glycinate at the recommendation of people on the nootropics subreddit. [0] Has worked wonders. [0] https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07ZD7R4RF/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1 https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07ZD7R4RF/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b...
    - pksebben 6y ago
      Glycinate; thanks for the tip. Always looking to sharpen the tools i use.

wincy 6y ago

I work as a software engineer mostly backend/middle tier APIs and stuff for a Fortune 500 company now. I’d remind myself that things like alcohol that act strongly on dopamine can cause SERIOUS problems with adderall, like not feeling any happiness for a week and fun things like that. Adderall is a serious tool to be taken seriously. I joke that Adderall is like a chainsaw. If you’re using it at 3am, there’s a problem. I’d also tell myself that the Adderall isn’t what made me lose weight, and wasn’t the main thrust of me being able to learn. Losing 75 pounds and moving from obese to a healthy weight HUGELY boosted my brain power and concentration power. I was also constantly reacting to food. Had to sort that out. Adderall let me sort of ignore it for a long time but the underlying condition just got worse. Was put on Nexium for horrible GERD at night at 34, was trembling and all sorts of scary side effects. A ketogenic diet with moderate exercise of walking once or twice a day makes a huge difference. Also magnesium is a like a miracle for my anxiety. I’d tell me from before I was even in tech at all to just stop wasting my time failing at school and just get a tech job. Although I don’t know if I could have done it without my wife, honestly. I was really good at lying to myself and she put a stop to that shit, excuse my language. I should have tried. I’d also maybe be less arrogant after getting a good job. I lost a lot of friends who were in a similar slacker boat as me a few years ago. It’s like they stopped wanting to hang out once I became successful which was very isolating.

pksebben 6y ago
Magnesium; I assume you mean magnesium amino chelate - I use that too. I was kind of pissed that I had to find out about it on the internet and my doctor looked at me funny when I mentioned it. A huge gamechanger for me was asking a friend who's also on the 'phetamines what time of day they stop taking it - now I'm religious about never ingesting stimulants after 3pm and holy crap what a difference. I was a bartender for over a decade; there's no better crash course on how awful a molecule alcohol is. It's the worst drug. Sorry to hear about your friends. It sucks to lose your roots, I went through something similar myself. I've come to reckon with the fact that people sometimes grow apart, and you can't always hold yourself responsible for what might just be an incompatibility in process.
- wincy 6y ago
  Wow you and I do sound like we've had a lot of the same experiences, glad to here you're figuring out all this too. 3pm is exactly my rule too, never ever past then. Most days not past noon because my wife will ask me "have you been taking Adderall?" because my personality is so different. I go from being fun and easygoing to absolute Type-A, everything including people is either an obstacle or a tool toward a goal. I had people who saw me thriving with Adderall and started taking it – it sort of destroyed them. I'm much more cautious about recommending it. I'm having a productive day today and haven't taken any – sticking to a low carb diet for me at least seems to be the absolute most important thing for my mental health. I was so unstable and angry before. Having a spouse around to correct my course when I start getting a little too enthusiastic about amphetamines and work was important for me too. I use Magnesium Glycinate at the recommendation of people on the nootropics subreddit. [0] Has worked wonders. [0] https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07ZD7R4RF/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1 https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07ZD7R4RF/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b...
  - pksebben 6y ago
    Glycinate; thanks for the tip. Always looking to sharpen the tools i use.