I am dreaded by how reality works and there is no way to explain any of it. If the reality has no ending or begining, how does it operate? The reality does foll

I am dreaded by how reality works and there is no way to explain any of it. If the reality has no ending or begining, how does it operate? The reality does follow some rules. How is is it enforced? Where does the rules run? How are the rules defined?