I've realised over the past decade that my brain just isn't wired to allow me to be a music buff. I absolutely love music and the emotional effects it has. But

I've realised over the past decade that my brain just isn't wired to allow me to be a music buff. I absolutely love music and the emotional effects it has. But I can never remember the names of songs, or how they sound. It means when I try to play music at a party, first I have to look it up by finding the playlist I put it in, and then it inevitably falls flat - missing the mood in the room by being too sad or happy or heavy or melodic. Many of my friends do this instinctually - they can throw songs into the queue and they fit the mood. The one area I can seem to remember is actual bands I've seen perform. Something about engaging with live music sets it in my mind. So while I think investing time into music if you enjoy it is worthwhile, there's no point forcing yourself. It might be that you're just not wired that way. And that's ok!