What did me a lot of good was reading these two books by Alice Miller which describe how childhood trauma caused by parents causes issues and why many modern ps

What did me a lot of good was reading these two books by Alice Miller which describe how childhood trauma caused by parents causes issues and why many modern psychiatrists still overlook this crucial issue, perhaps it might help you, it definitely helped me: Alice Miller: The Drama of the Gifted Child Alice Miller: The Body Never Lies