Still here trying to finish for years now It hasn't worked yet I still fear death And don't see that changing Which is a conundrum especially now, being a m

Still here trying to finish for years now It hasn't worked yet I still fear death And don't see that changing Which is a conundrum especially now, being a middle aged burned out white male American college drop out homeless with a ruined reputation I just want to be left alone not asking help I gave my small fortune away about seven figures I live in a vehicle and dream of being dead day in and day out Wanted out for a long long time I'm certainly not alone in this feeling but most rational folks will at least take care of themselves and not entirely sabotage their future Too many unresolved incidents Bullies in life: childhood, university, adulthood, workplace No faith in the species No desire to be alive I'll probably be gone from suicide at some point before retirement I think the species is shit And this naturally is in total conflict with the will of most people Just want to be left alone so I can finish the job already Far too many unresolved incidents Tech makes life worse in many ways by the way For example I can't escape my ruined reputation one google search away That will outlive me by a long shot