I think there is probably an organisation out there that's a better fit for you. I've seen orgs run 'agile' like a military operation - Jira rules everything,

I think there is probably an organisation out there that's a better fit for you. I've seen orgs run 'agile' like a military operation - Jira rules everything, with timesheet plugins so that everyone can account for every part of their day down to 15 minute intervals. Where there is a reprimand for choosing the wrong category of meeting ticket to assign an hour to. I have seen teams pre-Agile where you were left alone, sometimes for months at a time, to produce... hopefully. Maybe. But in the middle I've worked for a number of organisations where a status report in the morning scrum of "I'm reading up about X and evaluating Y in preparation for big feature Z next month" is perfectly acceptable.