This is a pretty intense statement. I think you just may be a workaholic that has found this "must work at all costs" startup mentality as a way to rationalize

This is a pretty intense statement. I think you just may be a workaholic that has found this "must work at all costs" startup mentality as a way to rationalize said workaholism. I started working where I am today and was putting in 80-100 hour weeks for a while. I lost a girlfriend over it, and then one day I woke up and realized that if I didn't hit the arbitrary deadline some executive somewhere dreamed up, the world wouldn't end. Now I rarely put in more than 40 hours a week and I'm happily married. Let me tell you something, if it comes down to my family vs my job, my job will lose every. single. time. Random websites that let you track how many tissues your friend in Utah used when he last sneezed will be dead and gone in a few years and no one will care. When your mother goes, you will definitely wish you spent the time with her.