I think the challenging part is definition of "normal life". The burden of fitting in with the "norms" of the society by suppressing your own internal beliefs f

I think the challenging part is definition of "normal life". The burden of fitting in with the "norms" of the society by suppressing your own internal beliefs for the short-term gratification of feeling normal comes back to bite you in the long-term. Over the centuries the society has mostly been unaccommodating to those who fall on the tails of this normal distribution, ostracizing them, punishing them, so on and so forth. But I still have faith in humanity to become more accepting and understanding those who are different instead of pressuring them to be the same. So the first step is to believe that your life is not abnormal but just different from most people. I hope you find your solace in this ever-evolving world.