My regimen is kind of the same. But then when I look at things like myself, the world, human nature, the stars, etc. my brain just freezes. I'm willing to accep

My regimen is kind of the same. But then when I look at things like myself, the world, human nature, the stars, etc. my brain just freezes. I'm willing to accept even a 'fuzzy' sense of meaning, but it should be coherent. Every now and then I'm taunted by this pursuit and sometimes it just cripples me.