Horrible! Even before Covid I was already going through a bad phase, I think I will never be as good as I once was in my job. I make stupid mistakes, I have a

Horrible! Even before Covid I was already going through a bad phase, I think I will never be as good as I once was in my job. I make stupid mistakes, I have a hard time focusing, I used to be one of the top performers of the team and now I struggle to do basic tasks without making mistakes. I stop and check my phone or the news every 15 minutes. I have a partner, a baby and a small kid and absolutely no family members to help with anything in an 8.000km radius. Kids can't go to school so wife is even more miserable by being stuck taking care of them the whole day while I attempt to work and fail miserably. I feel horrible that she has to take care of the kids while I'm here in the office absolutely failing to do my work. My mother just did a Covid test yesterday and she is also showing sign of Alzheimer's. I can't travel to the country where she lives to see or help her. I am honestly afraid of losing my job for being so unproductive. I even like what I do, I get excited thinking about the things I have to learn, but when it's time to sit down 9am to try to do work, I am just mentally exhausted to even begin to start. Then I check my phone. I can't just quit my job due to the need for money. I don't think switching jobs will be any more helpful since I am in such a bad productivity stage right now that the new employer will probably fire me upon realizing how crappy I am. I feel I will never be the productive programmer I once was, and this scares me. Thanks for the attention.