Don't kill yourself. Thats a silly thing to do about money. You need to find professional help and bounce those feelings off of a another person, but recognize

Don't kill yourself. Thats a silly thing to do about money. You need to find professional help and bounce those feelings off of a another person, but recognize they are feelings but dangerous ones. If I were in your boat - delete twitter, facebook, and stop watching the news. Stop spending cash, stop paying bills, save your cash for food and things you enjoy. Take a vacation. Cash is king. When business goes south - they stop paying bills. You gotta go into survival mode. Also apply for government help. If you are smart you can find a way to qualify. Apply for jobs, I'm older than you and unemployed and many startups are talking with me. It's only a matter of time before you secure a better job. It seems from what you have said, you are able to make large sums of money - so it will probably happen again since you are bright, you just need to make it through this year. The good opportunities are not gone. Our country has more problems then ever you just need to find one.