Very lazy too, so I get it. I try to take so many shortcuts, and often it leads me taking more time that I would have if I did the hard thing first. I've been

Very lazy too, so I get it. I try to take so many shortcuts, and often it leads me taking more time that I would have if I did the hard thing first. I've been meditating for 13 years, and sometimes I meet people with 3 years of practice that seem decades ahead of me. One time, I think after my 2nd or 3rd retreat, I practiced in such a way that instead of helping myself, I got into depression. Took me a few months to change course. I don't thing there is a "standard experience" for meditating. YMMV seems like a good summary for it. Could be a t-shirt. "Your Meditation May Vary"