Great post, thank you. In a way I do feel like it threw me unwittingly into philosophy. A lot of what I felt seemed like it came right out of Sartre's writings

Great post, thank you. In a way I do feel like it threw me unwittingly into philosophy. A lot of what I felt seemed like it came right out of Sartre's writings -- who I had never even heard of before last year. I'm hoping that with some time and healing I'll get to that place where I can appreciate the absurdity for what it is. I don't think the anxiety I feel is inherent in the realizations themselves, but emerge as a result of my perception of them. It's been hard to deal with that this year though, when there have been so many other anxieties piled on top of that core existential fear.